More Nostalgia

 

So Michael used to have this necklace back when we were first dating. It was one of those things he let me borrow so we could see each other again. I saw it in Spencers all the time and I always though about buying it but I'd usually shrug my shoulders and forget about it. 

The other day I was at the mall with Fatty and Serra and decided this time I wouldn't pass it up. It was the last one and the flood of nostalgia was too much to resist. 

This whole experience has been really strange already. It sort of feels like a breakup, because he's not here and we're not talking. But I have all of his stuff and I'm waiting for a letter, so instead of forgetting about him I'm always remembering him. It makes me both happy and a little sad. 

I had to finally buy this, because it reminds me that he's coming home sooner than I think.

:)

Three Wishes

 If given the chance to make three practically rule free wishes (which I would love) here's what I'd do:

1. I would wish for multiple supernatural abilities. Depending on the rules I guess I might only be allowed on per wish, so if I had to chose I'd probably go with Teleportation, though I did find this list of superpowers and it's a difficult choice. Teleportation would probably the most useful since it cuts out using transportation.

2. Let's not lie here, I'd wish for several billion dollars to be in my bank account. I'd probably be really anal about it and invest in things, start multiple savings accounts and buy stocks before spending a whole lot. I'd want to make it last, not just for me but for my family.

3. Here's where I say something gay like "end world hunger!" and "make alternative fuels openly available to the public!" No, actually, I'd really like war to suddenly be completely unnecessary. Just wish for everyone to unanimously decide that it's the stupidest most pointless way of solving problems. Negotiations over tea and coffee only. -insert lyrics from John Lennon's song "Imagine" here-

Day 18

Something you want to buy.

Well because I thought it would be fun and because I'd been playing Pokemon for eight years without cheating, I bought a DS Action Replay. It puts codes into your game that gives you a ton of items or makes it super easy to train your Pokemon and the like.

I regret this decision.

After fifteen minutes of playing on my pink DS Lite I've had for three years, the top screen flickered and faded to white. And it won't show anything else. I tried looking up how to fix this but the only people who had ventured to find their own solution said to take a hammer to the action replay and get a new DS. I've been borrowing my friend Serra's old school OG DS to play games, which is cool, but I've got my eye on bigger fish.

The new DS XL. There's a 3D edition coming out soon but I'm not terribly interested. The concept is just a little too advanced for me. My friend Kelsey has one of these fatty bad boys and it's gorgeous and I want it. I don't quite have the money and for SOME reason Mikey told me not to buy it...So I suppose there's one in my future after all. If I had to be picky I want this beautiful blue one because it's my favorite color.

I've always had a model of a gameboy ever since Gameboy Color when I was eleven. I'm a handheld system kinda gal. I like being able to play games wherever I am. It killed my soul when my own DS died and I felt so so guilty because I usually take such good care of my expensive toys. Serves me right for trying to cheat.

Favorite Quotes

I'm going to do my best to cite these quotes, because I hate when people don't do that.

"If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change." -Wayne Dyer

"It is better to be hated for what you are than loved for what you are not." -Andre Gide

"Those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." -Dr. Seuss/ Bernard Baruch (of course, since it's tattooed on me)

"The only real mistake is the one from which we learn nothing." -John Powell

"You never know what is enough unless you know more than enough." -William Blake

I found who was responsible for these quotes on Thinkexist.com. 

Also, I love this Bro version of a Marylin Monroe quote:

Your Motto: Words You Live By

There are definitely certain words I repeat to myself in different situations. And this also might turn into a "lessons I've learned" post, though I think I've done one like that before...

1. Everybody Comes And Goes. Not just boys like your mother told you, and not all friends are forever. What I've learned is just to be kind to the people in my life and not worry when one of them leaves. Of course, I've taken people for granted in my life and others have unpleasantly surprised me after I've treated them well, but all circumstances aside there's a damn good chance that whoever it is won't be around forever.

2. Sleep On It. I've had some very terrible days and I've almost made a lot of decisions I'd regret, and what I've found helps is just going to bed and waiting it out. Chances are, I'll feel differently (usually better) about it the next day.

3. Whatever You Give To The World Will Come Back To You. It's the rule of Karma, the rule of three. Whatever you put into the universe you'll get back times three. This is kind of a New Age/Pagan point of view but I've found it really helps to remember. For example, whenever I paid for things in the past whether I had the money or not, I never worried about it because I was giving to someone else, and I'll get it back in some form or another some day. Likewise, when you use everyone around you and take all of the people in your life for granted, some bad shit is bound to bite you in the ass someday.

And those are the three things I keep in mind every single day. They help me get through life with grace and the ability to think things through instead of being impulsive. Well, nobody's perfect. I slip up once in a while. But on a good day I do my best to be a good person.

Favorite Movies

You can't be mad, Deroy, because this is the real Megan Fox

Oh boy, so I've been putting this entry off. I watch a lot of movies. Michael and I both have an obsession with film and together we watch several movies a week, probably an average of one every other to every day when we have more time. Some people read books like I watch movies, if you know what I mean. I'm always looking for a new movie I think I'd like, and I judge this based on the cast and sometimes the director. I'm really starting to appreciate how they're made and the work that goes into them, especially something like Coraline. Stop motion movies made with little dolls and handcrafted sets are incredibly time consuming to complete and I have a deep respect for the people that put their hearts and souls into them.
Anyway, I could discuss types of movies all day, so instead I'll just make a list of some of the best movies I've seen:
(in no particular order)
1. The Miyazaki Movies. Spirited Away, Ponyo, Kiki's Delivery Service, and My Neighbor Totoro are my favorites.
2. Jennifer's Body. It's an almost B rated horror flick; kind of my guilty pleasure.
3. Artificial Intelligence (A.I.) If you don't cry, you don't have a soul.
4. Hook. Part of the Peter Pan Story. I never get tired of it.
5. The Hangover. The funniest shit I've seen in a long time. The first time you see it is always the best though. I'm stoked for the second one.
6. Scott Pilgrim. I watched this every day for a week when I bought it. It's just so ridiculous.
7. Shaun of the Dead. British comedy making fun on zombie movies. Gotta love it.
8. Hard Candy. Super intense.
9. Chicago. Need I say more?
10. Earth Girls Are Easy. It's probably just my love for cheesy 80's anything, but I love it to pieces.
11. The Breakfast Club. Of course. I don't know what kind of person doesn't like this movie. Obviously not the kind I want to hang out with.
12. Pan's Labyrinth. It's all in a dialect of Spanish from Spain. Very cool.
13. Zombieland. Some people weren't as excited about this as I was, but I think it's kickass.
14. The Underworld Series. Because I like vampires and werewolves as long as they have nothing to do with Twilight.
15. Taken. Who doesn't want to see Liam Neeson kicking a shit ton of Russian ass?
16. Tank Girl. She is my hero. I'm getting her tattooed below my flying key someday.
17. Waiting. Quoted a lot among my guy friends. I think Michael and I both have a crush on Ryan Renolds.
18. Sherlock Holmes. Robert Downey Jr and Jude Law kicking ass? Delicious.
19. Return to Oz. A lot of people don't know this exists, but this is the second book in the Oz series in movie form and it's really excellent. It's not an overdone 50's musical. It's a real movie.
20. Kiss Kiss Bang Bang. This is what I saw Robert Downey Jr in first, before all his latest badassery.

I think that's enough for now. I could keep going. If there's a movie on this list you haven't seen, I highly recommend getting a hold of it somehow.

Damn I love movies.

Money

I agree with my friend Serra when it comes to money. I do believe that money can buy happiness. Now, I've been happy with the small amount I earn from my part time job, but lately things have gotten worse with my money situation.

I woke up this morning, on payday, expecting around seventy or eighty dollars in my account from the three shifts I worked in the last pay period. I got twenty. That's not even enough to fill my fucking gas tank. What the fuck. I had fourty bucks in my account, I was hungry and confused. Actually, I still haven't eaten yet and I've been up for two hours. I tried calling work to say what the hell happened to my money, but the supervisor was conveniently busy.

So I called my dad to see if I should pull another small chunk out of my savings, which is meant for future schooling and more important things. I feel so damn guilty every time I do it. I like my money; I like seeing that fat amount in my savings and knowing its there for me later. I don't like making it smaller.

But I had no choice, because despite filing my taxes over two weeks ago I have yet to see my money. It would really help to have right about now, since I'm not getting hardly any hours at work and when I do they send me home early. I'm worried that I screwed something up on the forms, but I couldn't have, because my dad was right there and he is Math Master. I filled out a direct deposit bit on it also, so I should've received it faster than if I had asked for it to be mailed to me.

All I know is I'm pissed. I'm pissed at my work for screwing me over and I'm pissed at the government for holding out on me. And this is why I'm getting a degree one way or another so I can get the job I want and not be stuck at home relying on someone else for the rest of my life. I want to be able to hold my own, and despite the fact that my boyfriend will be nice and rich when he gets back from the army, I don't want to be a gold digger.

Fuck, man.